Another step forward

This morning I woke up bright and early with DH so that I could go in and get my CD3 bloodwork and ultrasound knocked out. He had to go to work this morning so he did not join me. Honestly I don't think he will be joining me very often at my appointments unless he needs to be there. Not really a need for him to be there when all they are doing is taking some blood and using the vag cam. Well that is pretty much how the morning went. I arrived at 7:15am they took me back for bloodwork where they took 4 vials of blood. Then they took me to the exam room where the ultrasound tech came in and did her magic with the vag cam. When she was finished I was taken in to the nurses office where she explained to me what I needed to do next.

Next on the list is the infectious disease testing for DH and the genetic testing for me. DH is working today and picked up OT for Thursday day half so he will most likely go and have it done on Friday. Good thing he happens to be teaching at a hospital that day. As for me I should recieve the kit with the mouth swab for my genetic testing on Thursday so as soon as I get it in my possesion I will do my part and send it back as I am told it can take up to 3 weeks to process. Then we just need to wait for CD1 (again) and we can get this show on the road.

So the amazing thing about Dr. M and Nurse D is that they call me as soon as they have results. Prime example is that I had my bloodwork and ultrasound done at 7:15am this morning and I had a phone call from Dr. M at noon. And a call from Nurse D about an hour later. Both told me that everything looked great and we just needed to get those last 2 tests out of the way and then we will move forward when I start my next cycle.

Again I am so hopeful about this process. Can't wait to keep this ball rolling.

Next step

So everything with my RE was AMAZING!!!! We met with Dr. M and he went over all of our paperwork and tests and said that it looked great. He was very pleased that Dr. R had us complete most of the testing before we even walked through the door. That will help us speed up the process. So the only tests we need to complete were standard infectious disease testing for both of us, genetic testing for me, and CD3 blood work and ultrasound for me. So Dr. M turns and says so call us on CD1 and we will get you in for that CD3 stuff and I let him know that was yesterday. He got a huge grin on his face and had me come in the next day for my testing. He then turns us over to our nurse. We have our own nurse D she seems pretty cool. She went over all the stuff that Dr. M did and gave us tons of paperwork to look over. After she wrote down our plan of action she walked us over to the insurance coordinater for the office. She was very nice and told us that with our insurance we were good to go, No pre-authorizations and only a $5 co-pay each time we come in. Not to Shabby!!! The whole process felt like we purchased a car. But it was so worth it. I feel so happy and hopeful!!!

Butterflies

Today is the big day!!! I am so excited and nervous. I have butterflies in my stomach. It is the day that we go to the RE and find out where we go from here. I am so happy that my body cooperated and I am only on CD2, which should mean that they can begin any and all testing that they see fit. I had a bunch of tests run by Dr. R but I am sure that Dr. M will want some more tests run. I have been drinking lots of water so that there should be no issues with the lab tech or nurse finding a good spot to draw the blood. I hear that it will be lots of tubes so that scares me a little, but I donate blood all the time so it shouldn't be a big deal. Well that's about it for now. About 45 minutes untill I leave work and see what the future has in store.

I will get better

Sorry it has been well over a week since I last posted. So here is a little update. I have been pretty busy with planning a baby shower for one of my best friends. She is expecting twins and I am over the moon happy for her. I spent countless hours making roses out of baby washclothes and trying to come up with creative ways to decorate. I kinda felt a little like my inner Martha Stewart was coming out. The shower was such a blast and I think she really loved it all.
As for me nope, not pregnant! I do however, have my RE appointment tomorrow and I am very excited. What makes it even better is that it was like my body knew that it had to wait to start this cycle a little bit later so that I could have blood work done at my first appointment. I am so nervous and so excited. I promise once I know more I will let you know so that if there is anyone out there that is going through the battle with IF they know what to expect.

Well hello there.......

It has been a little over a week since I have gotten on here and blogged. I am trying to get better but let's be real my life is not really all that exciting. So let me fill you in on the last couple of days.

Thursday: Hubby was working his shift. I worked the normal 8:30 - 5:30pm. I did manage to squeez in a workout at the gym that night.

Friday: Hubby was teaching in the morning and I had normal work day. I decided to leave work a little early so that I could go and take my EVOC test. Yeah I passed and I am all done with that class. Now just waiting for my card in the mail to say that I have completed the course and it is safe for me to drive an Emergency Vehicle. Once I get the card in hand I can work with the powers that be at the station to get cleared so that I can one day drive the Ambo.

Saturday: Time to get my hair trimmed. Nothing major just a little trim to shape it up and help it grow. Then we went up to EMS Conference in Baltimore just to check things out. After that we went to the most amazing burger place around The Abbey Burger Bistro If you are ever near this place you MUST check it out. SOOOOO GOOD!!!

Sunday: Demo day!!! Started on the utility room/wash room project. (I am really bad about uploading my pictures to the computer because DH takes the laptop to work so that he can do homework. I promise I will get better). I am really excited as to how this project is going to turn out. I of course will keep you updated as we get more work done.

Well that is the little blast update from me. Back to a normal work week. I will try to spice things up a bit.

I did it!!!!

You might be wondering what it is I did?????? Well here it goes. I had the $10 pizza box from Pizza Hut, and man was it AMAZING!!!! Well the pizza part was but the whole experience was a different story, so here it goes.

It was another Tuesday night where DH and I spent some time up at the Firehouse. We both had some studying to do for our classes that we are taking so we figured we would go up there and study (since DH was doing a group study). Anyway DH decided to be the nice guy and ask around who wanted pizza and basically everyone that was there wanted in. So DH gets on the computer and places an order for 4 - $10 boxes and 2 salads for a pick up time of 7:10pm. We leave the FH and drive over to the Hut to get our pizzas. When we arrive we find out that they never recieved our order. UGH!!!! So we had to place our order and then wait 30 minutes while they made it. That pretty much sucked but wait there is more. As we are placing the order the worker tells us that they do not have any of the sauce for the cinna sticks. WHAT???? No cinna stick sauce???? UGH!!!! So because of our troubles they gave us $10 off our order. All and all not a bad deal but what a pain. Our lesson learned for the night: Do not place pizza orders online.

You know you want to

Who is it going to be? Who will be the first person to follow my random blog? If you are the first please leave me a comment and let me know how you stumbled on my blog. Also let me know if there is anything that I can do to keep my dull life interesting for you to read.

I've been thinking about you

Well it's Tuesday and there really isn't a whole lot going on. I really have tried to take a break for the crazy world of TTC and not think too much about it. So the thermometer has not come out of it's case in almost 2 weeks. I have not been POAS to see if I can see a LH surge or any of that crazy stuff. I also have not been planning our sex life around hubby's work schedule. If he is home and we feel like it then great, none of this hurry home for 10 minutes between his shift and me going into work. It actually has been really nice. I don't feel as crazy. I have been working on taking more classes for the Firehouse and I also have been working on trying to get a little haelthier. This week my goal is to work out 5 out of 7 days. So far this week I am 2 for 2 and I hope to keep things going on this path. I have been eating better (well we can't count the Saturday dinner at Fogo de Chao), so since Sunday I have turned over a new leaf. Or at least I am trying to do so. But there is one thing that I can't stop thinking about........


Pizza Hut and your $10 dinner box. I want to eat you!!!!!! So, since you have been on my mind for weeks now you will be mine for dinner. The hubby and I will go and workout at the Firehouse and then after we workout we will order you and eat you and you will be delish!!! Then it will be back to studying for my EVOC test. My plan is to test tomorrow. We will see how that goes.

Just another day

Well there is really not a lot going on here. It has been a few days since I last updated my blog so I figured I would go ahead and fill you in on my last week or so. As I mentioned in my last post I scheduled my appointment with SG. YEAH!!!! Now let's hope that I will have to cancel it.
I have been keeping pretty busy with firehouse classes. I am almost finished with EVOC, only one more driving session and then the written test. Then I can work with the powers that be at the firehouse to work on getting cleared as a driver. I also started HazMat Ops class on Monday, this class will keep me busy every Monday night until the middle of April. At least I am keeping busy and trying to keep my mind off of the disappointment of not being pregnant yet. I have actually decided that this month I will do nothing other than count the days in my cycle, No CBEFM, No OPK's, No BBT and No Testing until after CD28....if I make it that far. Guess we will just have to wait and see.
Wish me luck!!

One big step or better yet a giant leap!

Well here it is CD1 again. Normally at this point in the day I am all tears and really have no idea how to act. No promises that I still won't cry today or act like a complete baby. I am feeling much better about today all because I took a leap. I finally made the call to Shady Grove (SG). I scheduled our appointment for March 20th. I am so scared, nervous and excited all at the same time. I am a little upset that I could not take their first available appointment (which was for Feb. 21st because DH has to teach that day). Oh well! Really in the scheme of things this works out better this way. It gives us another cycle of trying on our own (who knows maybe I will have to cancel my appointment because I am pregnant...but I'm not going to hold my breathe on that one). It also means that we most likely will not have any type of medical assistance until after May which means that we would still be able to go on the cruise in October.

Well I guess that is my brief update for today. I still haven't decided if I am going to continue to temp this cycle or if I should just roll with it and see how things go. Either way I am looking forward to March 20th and the hope that this brings.

Oh Rotten Day!!!!

So today I feel like a total grouch! Nothing like waking up to that huge temp drop, knowing that at some point in time on this day AF will be here which will bring yet another CD1. I really am not sure how many more times I can take this. I completely understand that we are barely over the one year mark for trying but right now I am completely tried already. So as if waking up to that huge temp drop wasn't enough to keep me down all day, DH had to work his shift today and I had to spend the day entertaining my step daughter. I love my step daughter with all my heart and we always have a great time, but on a day like today I just need DH around so that I can deal with the emotions of another failed cycle. So you might be thinking at this point I am just complaining to complain, oh if only that were it. Oh it completely gets worse. I got Facebooked tonight, what does this mean??? Well it means that as I sit down to relax after dinner and a day of entertaining an 8 year old, I pick up my phone to play on FB for a few minutes and what do I see??? I see that my step daughters biological mother has given birth to her baby #3. I know that there are no limits to the number of babies that people can have or anything like that but it just hurts to see people I know having babies when I have been trying for so long and have nothing to show for. What also made me really grouchy about the entire situation is that she promised my step daughter that she would call her if she was going to the hospital to have the baby, nope no phone call, no text message or nothing. According to FB she "checked in" at the L&D around 2:00pm and the baby was born at 6:45pm, she didn't bother sending a text message until 10:00am the next morning. It just kills me to see my sweet little step daughter get so bummed out by broken promises. For all of these things make me grouchy. So today just call me Oscar the Grouch!

Getting Better???

Well after a rough weekend of coughing I think I am finally getting better. I just wish I was back at 100%. I hate having to take medicine in the first place but to have to take it while I am in the 2WW I feel even worse. I know I shouldn't feel bad about it but that big "What if?" makes me so nervous. I still have another week before I know the fate of this cycle. As of right now I am not feeling too great about it. I have no symptoms, but maybe that is a good thing. Only time will tell.

Still Sick

So here it is Friday and I am sick. I really thought about staying home from work because I felt like I big ol' bucket of a$$. I woke up this morning and took my temp as I always do. It was high for what it should be at this point of the month (I know it is a little frightening that I know what my temperature should be just about every day), anyway I knew deep down that since it was that high it could be 1 of 2 things. 1.) I could actually be pregnant or 2.) I have a low grade fever. So I roll out of bed and go to the bathroom and grab an IC so I can POAS and see if I am pregnant. Knowing that I am only 6DPO right now it is way too early for a positive test but I was going to give it a shot anyway since I have so many just sitting there. Of course as I suspected it was negative and I went back to bed. As soo as I got back to bed I began coughing so hard that my throat and stomach were both in a lot of pain, I could feel that phlem build up and knew I needed to run back to the bathroom at which point I began to vomit phlem and anything else that could have drained from my sinuses. Sorry for the TMI and the ugly mental picture. Anyway I am guessing that based on my sequence of events from this morning I am still sick, just sick and not pregnant.

Should I feel bad?

So here it is day 3 of some sort of coughing issue. I am not sure that I would call it a full blown cold but I do know one thing for sure is that I do not feel good. In a normal not so crazy world I would just pop some Nyquil or Dayquil and just go about my day as normal........but here I sit in the crazy tree of another 2WW wondering. I wonder if I should take the medicine because IF I was pregnant I wouldn't take it but since I'm not sure and wont know for at least another week how this cycle went it seems like it might be okay to take it. When we first started TTC (over a year ago) there were a number of things that I would not do while I was in the 2WW, like drink alcohol or take medicines other than PNV. Now all of a sudden, ever since we past that not so magical one year mark of trying I am starting to have more of a F-it attitude. I am starting to think that trying to be healthy and not drink or take certain medicines that might make me feel better all becasue I "might" be pregnant really isn't worth it. I am starting to feel like I just would rather feel better and be happy then be pregnant. I mean please don't get me wrong I want a baby more than anything, but right now I just want to feel better. I know I could go out and buy medicine that is "safe" to take while you are pregnant but I already have this stuff on hand. I know completely lazy, but like I said F-it. Please don't judge too hard.

New Year and a New Me

Well it is the start of a new year. Welcome 2012!!!! I am ready to make this the year. Let's see if I can give you a run down on where things stand. We have been trying for the past year to have a baby. Sounds like fun, right? While yes it is fun practicing it is not fun to face the negative pregnancy tests each month. "They" say it can take a healthy couple a year to conceive, but I always thought we would be over achievers (I guess not). So here we are at the point where "they" say we can seek a little medical help. We have had a few tests run and all seems to be in the normal range. So back to the question at hand.... Why hasn't it happened yet? No one can be sure. We definatley have been giving it a good try. We have been given the option to move on to an RE and get help but we have decided to wait. We will wait until May........ Why? Well it is kind of a long story that maybe someday I will fill you in on, the short version is we have a family cruise scheduled for October 2012 and if I want to go on the cruise I can not be further than 24 weeks along. We will not be preventing in the meantime, so if it happenes it happens but it won't be happening with help until after May, if we have to wait that long.